New year starting

I have always thought I knew how much the people in my life loved me, always taking inventory of the people in my life to nurture the remaining relationships because they were so precious to me. This past December I got sick which kept getting worse and worse until I got into bed on Christmas day and didn’t get up until January 5th that is the day my parents said enough is enough and took me to the emergency room, as my dad was sitting in the ER with me I could see the worry building (btw they have the most uncomfortable metal shopping cart like wheelchairs) they got me in after about an hour and I was stuck in a hallway because all of the beds were taken.  I got admitted to the hospital and began my 2 week stay. I was told I was hours away from death and that I was going septic and if I would have waited the few hours I was going to wait I would have been past the point of saving…….. Scary right.

This whole time my dad and sister came to see me every day (My mom can’t got to the hospital because of health issues ( it killed her to stay away)). I had four surgeries on my foot (where the infection started) and massive antibiotics to get the infection out of my body. Along the way I got too much of one antibiotic which caused a huge rash everywhere and my kidneys started suffering (those are fixed now). When I left the hospital I left changed… I always knew my family loved me but this experience has changed me. I saw fear and hopelessness in my family’s eyes and I never want to see that again. During this desperation my sister posted on her Facebook, texted friends, and did a little bit of prayer herself to get me through this whole ordeal. In the mist of this a few people stood out and offered support, love, and an ear to listen and I am forever grateful. I have always had a hard time-sharing my business I don’t like people knowing what is going on with me I figure you need to be in my life to get to know the juicy stuff and if you have done me wrong or aren’t around you don’t deserve to know my business. That is why when I started this blog/website it was so hard…. I could post a recipe, a quote, or even a small story and it was ok but I never gave too much now I figure I will let it all out…..

 I am doing better now and I feel so lucky to have the survived but even more lucky to really see the love of my family and these people who surprised me and took care of my family. I always knew my love knew no bounds for my family but you can only imagine when you see firsthand their love for you… well

My cup runneth over…

So that’s where I am right now…

I am healing (a very long few months)… I am working hard to stay positive and trying to figure out life now. I don’t have a job (I was laid off last year) I don’t have a direction but I have faith that I will find it…

I am going to make some changes to the website and try to be more open and sharing life…

We are also going to be making some health changes (I am diabetic now) lucky me… I am so lucky that I can change it if I am healthier and make the changes… we still have a type 1 diabetic kid in the house that doesn’t have the chance to reverse it… type one is forever ( or until there is a cure)

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